semua nya berulang kembali ~

setelah sekian lama nya,,,aku sangka kan yg kau takkan ulang lagi perangai kau tuh...tapi ternyata aku silap...

aku dah bagi kau peluang untuk kau berubah,,,peluang untuk kau menyesal di atas perbuatan kau selama nie...tapi ternyata aku dah silap....silap sebab bagi kau peluang yg kali ke brapa untuk kau berubah.....memang aku dah terSILAP BESAR ! dulu pernah kau sakit kan hati aku nie,, aku terasa dgn apa yg kau telah buat kat aku,,memang aku mengaku yg aku terasa hati aku sakit sangat...tapi aku biar kan.. pernah juga dulu kau buat hati aku SAKIT SANGAT2.... sampai kan aku rasa yg hati aku nie dah HANCUR BERKECAI gara-gara kau....tapi apa yg kau buat????? kau cuma fikir kan perasaan kau tuh je,,kau tak pernah fikir pasal hati aku yg telah kau sakiti nie.... kenapa kau jadi macam nie????? apa salah aku kat kau sampai aku dapat balasan yg macam nie???? kau cuma fikir kan perasaan marah kau tuh je,, lepas kau dah berjaya buat kan hati aku sakit,,,kau hanya buat apa yg kau rasa patut,,kau mintak maaf dan kau janji yg kau takkan buat lagi perangai kau tuh....aku pun percaya kata2 kau tuh....aku pun maaf kan kau dgn senang hati nya tanpa aku fikir kan hati aku yg tengah sakit....rupa2 nya aku dah sekali lagi silap langkah,,,aku dah terSILAP LANGKAH dgn memaaf kan kau...ternyata kau ulangi perangai kau tuh lagi,,tapi kali nie kau telah sakit kan hati aku lagi,,sakit kan hati aku sampai ke tahap MAKSIMUM ! tapi apa yg kau buat ??? seperti yg kau selalu buat,,kau hanya mintak maaf dan anggap perkara nie tak de apa2 bagi,,mmg bagi kau xde apa2.. TAPI BAGI AKU......kau tak pernah fikir pun...sebab bukan kau yg kena,,TAPI AKU YG KENA ! mulai daripada saat nie,,,aku takkan bagi kau peluang lagi dah...sekali lagi kau lakukan perkara yg sama nie,,,aku takkan teragak-agak untuk tak maaf kan kau terus sampai bila-bila ! dan mungkin aku takkan teragak-agak untuk putus kan hubungan antara aku dgn kau.... AKU AKAN PUTUS KAN HUBUNGAN DGN KAU SAMPAI BILA-BILA ! meskipun dalam hati aku nie masih ada sisa-sisa sayang untuk kau....

She says she doesn't care, but her eyes tell a different story.

~ Behind my smile is everything you'll never understand.

related quotes : 

~ Sometimes I wish I could just be a little kid again.  So when life gets tough you can just play pretend.  I wanna go back to when Santa did exist.  When your daddy was the only boy you ever kissed.  When Disney World was the best place to be.  When the only movies you could see were rated G.  When your biggest problem was learning to write your name and people didn't change...and your friends were the same.  And every time you were sad or you had a bad day.  You could just run to mommy and it would all be okay.  I wanna go back to no hurt...and no pain...just laughter.  When everyone always lives happily ever after.

~ Behind my smile is a hurting heart.  Behind my laugh, I'm falling apart.  Look closely at me and you will see, the girl I am...isn't me.

~ I just don't feel like I know myself very well right now, so how can I be sure about anything?  Most of the time I feel so awkward, you know, like I don't belong in my own skin, I get frustrated at everything, I could just scream and there's no reason for it, I just hate myself.

~ When I do something great, no one ever seems to remember, but when I do something wrong, no one can ever seem to forget.